desire

my desire to get trough all of the shit that happen looking so dim and i dont know how and what other way to pull my self from this ringer..i taught i mapped it out i taught i knew all the way up but yet again and again it just keep on happen and happen..the life i had past is something epic in my entire life but well how do it spell sounds past so im always take my hand of the past and start grab to the present life i had..smile are the only friends true friends the left with me trough all the badshit happened..im not gonna say life sucks cause from what the track had made for me that is how i will run it..guess that is the only thing that left now and the only thing i hold to keep me still using the body and soul given..LIFE IS GOOD

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by the last thing that i should do is make the addiction drive first and leaving me behind..was a good life still young and had alot of thing in my mind to make it happen but im not gonna go with addiction in me..it not something that can be proud of it not something that we should not thinking of cause human had an expiring date..so to be honest im living with it for a long time and god no idea on how to make it stop..well i guess now im still a human with a heart and brain to think so i will think to have a bright healthy future rather then living in life that will be help by other..im not kindda person that need others always by my side i just need some space for me an this is a point where i should make up myself a great heart and be someone that somebody can proud of..this addiction is not gonna make me go any further..god bless me and the life i had,peace!

quote for today : When all is said and done, more is said than done

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the price of evil

from my search,this what i found the best sound of the name and element of demon of some sort of things,i've been curious and want to know more about demon and this one creature called vampire.still got no answer why..

Richard Dukante's Hierarchy (1963)
Unsere - (f) Fertility and Sorcery
Delepitore - (f) Demoness of Sorcery Enlightement
Satanchia - Grand Genreal (War)
Agaliarept - Assistant Grand General (War)
Lucifage - High Command (Control)
Flereous - Fire Elemental
Lucifer - Air Elemental
Leviathan - Water Elemental
Belial - Earth Elemental
Beelzebuth - Lord of insects
Belphegore - Master of Armorment and Weaponry
Mesphito - Keeper of the book of death
Amducious - The destroyer
Asmodeus - Demon of Lust
Sonnielion - (f) Demoness of hate
Abbadon - Advisor
Ammon - demon of domination
Mammon - Demon of Avarice
Rosier - Demon of love
Ashtaroth - (f) Preistess of friendship
Eurynomous - Demon of Death
Verrine - Demon of Health
Verrier - (f) Demoness of plants and herbalism
Ronwe - Demon of Knowledge
Babeal - Keeper of Graves

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was it possible for me to have it? gosh i really want em' it was so cute and wow it was kindda thing im sure that she will not give me after tattoo-ing cause well i think it something that cant! but it so beautiful and cute i promise i will take care of it like no other else..can you imagine its kindda cool to have it and keep it in your house..and the cute little bark kindda awesome! and yea this pet can grow bigger like really big!! man i wish i can have it... DALMANTTION

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same shit thing happen again and again but yea as usual other then you rather deal with it or you can just let it walk infront of you with silence and just let it go away by time..its not a hard work just a matter of time you should remain your soul calm of the seduction that walks..the life that never gonna be end even a day with all the test that consider i always see it coming again and again and just dont have any other reason but face it..i never had the life i want what thank god for the life i had its really consider as wonderful cause everything goes to the point even it going not really straight..wel i guess not just me that had a hard life it just i had a hard time sooner or later maybe it gonna be end..do this consider as a heart feeling? i just dont know when and how i gonna get but yea hoping is another reason to live..hey you,love you ahahhahaha

QUOTE FOR TODAY : A coward is much more exposed to quarrels than a man of spirit

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i make it strong i make it clear i make it sense on every step i take..why and why should i being delaying it and denying things that i clearly see in front,running around in the same room doesnt make thing productive doesnt make any hand to own life and world..it seem like a new faith need a new jersey,not something materialistic but something that can push the limit can change the fact and the faith to something that real and believe it is real..so what else other then make thing worst just make things easy about it..when life was not the real chase after all..

a new quotes that can recently use : Faith has to do with things that are not seen and hope with things that are not at hand

today quote : Life is a comedy for those who think,and a tragedy for those who feel

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it is something to be saying that i had a wonderful life so far this year.it was a blessed year for me,Alhamdullilah,Thank God for giving..well i should be saying that i have a good quality life and not regret bout it..yea for me im mot having a plain life rich having all this and that in a blink of eye,but im not having a hard life where lunch is a new think like people at palestine are.my family had a hard time and we are not rich to eat lamb stew everyday,we are malaysian and my mom can still feed me rice everyday(just me will not thankful,before.i will now) they(my parent) till now fighting to survive for next month,if you know what im saying..they hardly try to make me as same level as other kids like what they seen..im so embarrassed and humiliated of my self seeing them fighting for me,working un-same time like other parent at their age..it all for me yet im still cold me..well i guess cause im having a hard time(i think) so a simple problem will not effect my mental shockly it teach me how to be strong they teach me how to fight back from losing..living in life that full of obstacle making me who i am right now..the life i had now is from the lent of God and blessing by God guide by my mother(nor saadah binti haji shukri) a teach from my dad(ramly bin nordin) and everyone who had and still be around me since the first cry i'ed made in these temporarily life..thank God for the life that blessed to me since july 11th 1991-july 11th 2010(present) and continuing..the journey i had before making a good changing point in my life to open my eyes and realize the goods and bads in the life that i should go for.the dream i had making my aim visible in my mind and the aim is the end of my rope that i climb now..i hope it will not fall or else i'll be fall..i am hafiz syamir,and this is me typing while other do their stuff and enjoying bless sunday birthday..good day !