my voice

its hard to walk . . its damn to know that life is getting hard and even dying for me . . how could things be okay when everything around is being sick and it pressuring me . . please,a damn word never buzzing me up but a second always freakin me out . . i need something or anything or even someone to calm me up . . life getting shit every single minute . . why all this thing is happening to me ? damn,but still i cant keep on believe on the future that never gonna happen . . i just keep on believe in present and past as my book for a guide my present for a good future . . what i have to do keep on believe that god always there,mama right beside me every second of her breath and ill make my minute is second,my hour is minute and my day an hour cause if not ill be tragically die in this phase . . just keep on strong . . everything happen for a reason and every bad thing there a happiness at the end . . thanks for make me live in the present and make me believe that this is the real world im walkin around . . each day i hope the old me dead and gone a way,bit by bit yes ive stop bout the two things really evil and i hope i can . . segala yang tuhan mahu jadi,ia jadi . ayat-83(surah yassin)