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i dont know if it post wit time to but seriously things going up side down now..i cant sleep i i dont know what i can do now lots of things seems to be not okay and like im walking to a cold winter alone without any one to hold..lots of things make no sense to me..i feel like i lose in a war..what the hell is going on with me..i just need it to be simple as it could be but things going to be so complicated and make no sense at all..funny to say that i feel comfort and really alive and i dont know it seems so perfect.maybe im just a crazy lunatic but things being so suck..i dont know im so crazy right now..crazy cause thinking of you..i know it sucks but that is me,im human and i can filter this feeling towards you..i feel so horrible..its the first time i bought a flower..not even to my mom..funny huh? :) stupid me..sometimes even you not even make a single move on a day i just not feeling any people say ego and being so stupid to text i think that time you never taught bout me and ya maybe you not even wanna think bout it but its automatically be in me..it just natural steps of my daily life right now..i know it is really crazy when i pray i never forget to pray bout your happiness your healthy and i can take care of you but it is not so stupid right..im crazy thinking of you i know it sounds so stupid but that is the fact that happened right now..im a simple person so things will be so simple as it could be..but things has being so mess up when it comes to part like this..i know that God are there somewhere and know bout this,please God please,let me be in that box inside her..please,im bagging you