i am

me trying to be me as me so i can be happy like you..yes i am jealous of what you had and i dont have'it..the life i had is not as easy as what i can told about by word,im in the situation trying to make everyone else happy its hard..try it if you can..try to be me,huh but i never sad bout the life i had..i know things can be solve..yea there alot out there with a thousand more problems then me :) im proud to be me,i dont wanna be made.. :)

love?

still try to calm myself and try not to think bout it..it a shit if i add it into mylife right now,with all the situation and condition im not ready for love,dude! wake up its 2010 bullshit if you wanna say love cost only two heart love cost infinite money so the next time ill talk about it im ready to be a father..hope so(if you know what im trying to let you know ) :)

hunger

always come not at the right time,oh hunger..can you come bout 1 hour from now? gosh you make me sick..for real,just do something else so you will not bothering me..i will eat but not now..just dont have any mood yet so get lost and come back bout an hour from now..thanks really appreciate that man!

yet

i love the way morning goes,when you had a walk at your street going to the park..its some kind of feeling that you will never get other time in the day..the smell of the laundry each houses,feeling like thousand bird singing at the same time,the sun rising bit by bit all the faces going to work with lots of mind set you can see..there are some people who really calm,there are someone who rushing out..its all because of the level they sit..its an enjoyable moment to feel..as the day growing older,just set your mind that it looks beautifully that way..it keeps you calm in some moment we should lie ourself that way cause if not and you see it negatively,it just so scary and not bring any good reason for it..should be start your day with smile and good quality of rest :)

desire

my desire to get trough all of the shit that happen looking so dim and i dont know how and what other way to pull my self from this ringer..i taught i mapped it out i taught i knew all the way up but yet again and again it just keep on happen and happen..the life i had past is something epic in my entire life but well how do it spell sounds past so im always take my hand of the past and start grab to the present life i had..smile are the only friends true friends the left with me trough all the badshit happened..im not gonna say life sucks cause from what the track had made for me that is how i will run it..guess that is the only thing that left now and the only thing i hold to keep me still using the body and soul given..LIFE IS GOOD

a

by the last thing that i should do is make the addiction drive first and leaving me behind..was a good life still young and had alot of thing in my mind to make it happen but im not gonna go with addiction in me..it not something that can be proud of it not something that we should not thinking of cause human had an expiring date..so to be honest im living with it for a long time and god no idea on how to make it stop..well i guess now im still a human with a heart and brain to think so i will think to have a bright healthy future rather then living in life that will be help by other..im not kindda person that need others always by my side i just need some space for me an this is a point where i should make up myself a great heart and be someone that somebody can proud of..this addiction is not gonna make me go any further..god bless me and the life i had,peace!

quote for today : When all is said and done, more is said than done

b

the price of evil

from my search,this what i found the best sound of the name and element of demon of some sort of things,i've been curious and want to know more about demon and this one creature called vampire.still got no answer why..

Richard Dukante's Hierarchy (1963)
Unsere - (f) Fertility and Sorcery
Delepitore - (f) Demoness of Sorcery Enlightement
Satanchia - Grand Genreal (War)
Agaliarept - Assistant Grand General (War)
Lucifage - High Command (Control)
Flereous - Fire Elemental
Lucifer - Air Elemental
Leviathan - Water Elemental
Belial - Earth Elemental
Beelzebuth - Lord of insects
Belphegore - Master of Armorment and Weaponry
Mesphito - Keeper of the book of death
Amducious - The destroyer
Asmodeus - Demon of Lust
Sonnielion - (f) Demoness of hate
Abbadon - Advisor
Ammon - demon of domination
Mammon - Demon of Avarice
Rosier - Demon of love
Ashtaroth - (f) Preistess of friendship
Eurynomous - Demon of Death
Verrine - Demon of Health
Verrier - (f) Demoness of plants and herbalism
Ronwe - Demon of Knowledge
Babeal - Keeper of Graves