i'd

made up my mind and i come with 2 choices that is should i go with the next sem like before and always or should i open my mind to the real world that always welcome everyone to come and chase the paper . . what i mean is the most beautifully awesome smell of paper call money . . yea they always said that studies come first that others but you see its 2010 . . its not bout book to work on its bout life to learn on . . when you good on something just sharp it so the paper will run to your pocket . . but yea study gonna make your pocket fat BUT if you have the way and you know how to get to the top . . the world changed so we should change the way we think too . . plus,engineering is not something that i wanna go through so yea,why not right ? :) GB

here

it goes again,well i had sometime so yea,here i am . . just haha i can use an idea how and what i can be in the future . . anyone know that ? hope so cause im lost right now . . lost in the middle of nowhere and got no idea which way i should choose cause im afraid what is it at the end of the road i choose . . well i try to be brave to seat where i can survive but till when i wanna stand here without doing nothing to get out from there . . well hoping is something wishing not gonna bring me anywhere . . but yea,hoping too long just bring shit back for me . . well im proud that i had a mind that like this what i had cause there apart where i even can not think alot about the think that important to the world well i guess that what make me so calm . . just sometimes . . not all the time . . anyway , well i dont wanna say it cause everyone know life is bullshit . . so praying that everything gonna be okay . . yup,everything gonna be okay . . GB

gb/godbless

freak

okay , jadi life is not that easy but tak de lah susah mana cause when you believe in God then jalan nya lurus so i dont really mind bout the life . . kindda cool the way it is,but here some tricky trick that i dont know agak mencabar . . 1) bila selalu sangat tido siang susah sangat nak tido malam,tah cam entah, hari tu dah okay tido kol 10,11 then ni start balik tak tido malam. . ape cer ? keras je kot malam kalau best tak pe doh . . damn ! 2) what gonna happen with my study ?(just dont wanna talk so long but it really fucked up) 3rd i dont know ma,sometimes i get you right but sometimes,haprak . . i will improve on that . . i love you ma 4)babe,there is a word between YES and NO aite ? there no such new word in between so stop being a "natural" position cause i dont want you to . . left or right,you choose . . oh yaw hommies,i dont know what the fuck is going on with you but please ay just wake up and that living again man ! aint got no time for bullshiting mayne ! our time is past ay,stop crackin around and do something that can make you eat in the future . . what's up with her anyway ? are you super crack when you want her to stick with you mayne ? she is hilarious and i dont know super fucked up and do want to mention that really close to you man ? sis yeah but a girl man open your eyes wide dude ! she were fucking around before and still now i wanna talk bout it but just you were being so ass stick up the whole time with her . . ay buddies i know you man ! but btw have a bless wish you luck

road

aint bout gangster or bullshiting around anymore man..its about real life right now..aint got no time to make whole thing a mess just live by what we had..dont demand to much cause in real life we aint got all for ourself..life is really that hardcore..just dont waste your time on something that you not confidence about to rely your faith..put it something strong something that you can think about and something that will bring you sometin..face it man ! this is a real life aint got no second chance for us..you waste it you lose it there is no bullshiting and play again that is how we deal in real life..so incase you not strong enough just play it safe man cause me i got no other road like you..so want it or not the hard way is the only way for me..i learn and i born for it man..i had prepare my self for it cause that life looks so simple making me look like i bullshit all thing but i got bigger things then that to take care off..so go fuck you head off if you wanna be in that way for the whole time..trust me you aint go no where with you attitude like that man..sorry but i really disappoited on you man! just hope you wake up soon..from a brother to a brother

i am

me trying to be me as me so i can be happy like you..yes i am jealous of what you had and i dont have'it..the life i had is not as easy as what i can told about by word,im in the situation trying to make everyone else happy its hard..try it if you can..try to be me,huh but i never sad bout the life i had..i know things can be solve..yea there alot out there with a thousand more problems then me :) im proud to be me,i dont wanna be made.. :)

love?

still try to calm myself and try not to think bout it..it a shit if i add it into mylife right now,with all the situation and condition im not ready for love,dude! wake up its 2010 bullshit if you wanna say love cost only two heart love cost infinite money so the next time ill talk about it im ready to be a father..hope so(if you know what im trying to let you know ) :)

hunger

always come not at the right time,oh hunger..can you come bout 1 hour from now? gosh you make me sick..for real,just do something else so you will not bothering me..i will eat but not now..just dont have any mood yet so get lost and come back bout an hour from now..thanks really appreciate that man!