just like

this is the story where there is one who will always go to the opposite ways of the world direction there is one who will be the misfortune for everything that happen to him there is one who will be on your side no matter who the fuck are you , he dont give a damn bout others cause all he will think about was you all the time yet you left . and he keep on smiling to the cold world who said he will never gonna make it and he once try to prove the world that he made it but you spoil it,well again he the one who eat all those word from the world, serve him right. he not trying to kill he not trying to sell drug he not trying to make the world a batter place cause yet every single time he know he is just a normal human try to live like others being normal yet at the end of every part he knows that he cant be normal cause maybe he was born to be special, he try to convince himself that he is somekind of special creature made by God for some good reason and every single day he thankful for it,but again another day another badness born for him, but yet still for another tomorrow he keep on create another smile on his face,and he will keep on walking untill his God say enough of walking for him but as long as that things not happen he will try to make something special to the space around him so everything feel batter for his present in others life,he try to fits on the time that was never being his and always being others but he fight for himself and he know the right to fight for it cause at the end he gonna fight just for it no matter what he is the one cause time is something he cant stop "kun faya kun" this is not the story bout he trying to be a hero on any life this is not a story bout he failed on his on life this is not a story to prove that the world being buyers to him but this is a story bout a smile that make him who he is tomorrow cause if once he believe there will be no smile for tomorrow,everything around him will be torn apart, 'just like before'

changes

its like from monday comes tuesday and tuesday comes wednesday and after all,day by day life change us and everything around us,even if we not noticed it day by day afterward is not like day by day before . . all the time we had is hangout and conquer the world claiming its ours . . running trough the darkest night a longer dark journey is the one we like more then the day that shine bright,even if we not noticed,day by day we change from our to us and from us to we and from to me,im not afraid of losing it but i live that kindda life for so long and now when its not there any more it feel awkward a long night . . i guess cause we all grew older and this is the hardest time to get trough so yea me too,gaining age is simple but trough age is harder the the word hard it self, from the only problems of the day is going to school now come the bigger responsibility that we hold and cant let go of it, but i just dont wanna die when the only person who know im dying is my officemate which is NERD and crying when others burying me,i hope when the time comes there is someone who will rise up the right hand and looking to the skies that they will bring along my spirits with them day by day till the end . . oh yea,wife . i dont know when but its something that i can start to plan right now cause them all had a strong based when im still fight for it . . but yea only God know but it so yea i just go with the flow,fight for it but let God decide it for me :) BUT WHEN THE DAY COMES,JUST DONT CRY ON MY FUNERAL, KEEP MY SPIRITS INSIDE YOU LIVE DAY AFTER DAY. hell yeah(Y)

my voice

its hard to walk . . its damn to know that life is getting hard and even dying for me . . how could things be okay when everything around is being sick and it pressuring me . . please,a damn word never buzzing me up but a second always freakin me out . . i need something or anything or even someone to calm me up . . life getting shit every single minute . . why all this thing is happening to me ? damn,but still i cant keep on believe on the future that never gonna happen . . i just keep on believe in present and past as my book for a guide my present for a good future . . what i have to do keep on believe that god always there,mama right beside me every second of her breath and ill make my minute is second,my hour is minute and my day an hour cause if not ill be tragically die in this phase . . just keep on strong . . everything happen for a reason and every bad thing there a happiness at the end . . thanks for make me live in the present and make me believe that this is the real world im walkin around . . each day i hope the old me dead and gone a way,bit by bit yes ive stop bout the two things really evil and i hope i can . . segala yang tuhan mahu jadi,ia jadi . ayat-83(surah yassin)

live

i live my life my own way and i like the way it go fuckin hard yea we always complain bout how hard life is but at the end of the day we survive and life goes on . . shit comes everyday but after a beautiful sleep shit not smelly anymore just make us to think how to get that shit off . . even how hard life punch i still have some courage to punch it back truth is since god give me chance to live i aint quit to survive yaw,well life is serious shit but it aint knock me down it burn me so i will find my way out from that fire to make me live on the comfort air . . i'll find my way day world had my word,my mama get myself in the world i bought myself out from this shit aint got nothing to stop me now cause i can read what faith had wrote and this is how it goes . . i get myself in the prob i get myself out the prob

what it call

you know why ? the word is curious actually . . not this and that what you think . . if i know then ill go smiling doing the jumping jack . . haha should i be corny and cry here and there ? my grandfather die when i was 6 and i play around his casket happily my grandmother i just dont know if she die already or not but yet still no tears . . should i live in sorrow ? naah,i dont think so either it bout money for life or its bout me live with my mom in the heaven afterlife other then that is a bonus well hunambeing can live without bonus . . haha jumping jack . . miss that move , gonna do it now :)

like

okay i will start :

i like dogs nor the cat

i like wolf more then dogs

i like unformal more then formal

i like eat then sleeping

i like sleeping then "nutin"

i like hangout then stoning

i like cigarette then weed

i like plain then beer

i like smile then cry

i like cry then mad

i like mad then foolish

i like walking then talk crap

i like truth then lie

i like lie then sin

i like talk then silence

i like silence then nonsense

i like together then alone

i like alone then nofreedom

i like face then tit

i like tit the pussy

i like jeans then slack

i like casual then formal

i like twice then once

i like learn then study

i like zen then ipod

i like iphone then bb

i like 3gs then 3g

i like money then lifeless

i like life less then bothering people

i like band then machine

i like more then less

i like night then days

i like you then her

i like myspace then facebook

i like tumblr then twitter

i like blogspot then diary

i like rain then sunny

i like money then paper

most of my life i love to like and i will like to do it forever cause hating is something that will hurt people,i love the life i had i been thinking to hate it but this is my life and it show bout me so why should i hate myself cause i can love myself and all bout me . . its hard that make me learn its pain that make me grow its sad that make me understand its sorrow that been teach me ever since . . life is painfull but it is the colour of your life so it can be just plain and get all what you got or it can be hard and joyfull plus meaningfull so i learn to appreciate . . GB

i'd

made up my mind and i come with 2 choices that is should i go with the next sem like before and always or should i open my mind to the real world that always welcome everyone to come and chase the paper . . what i mean is the most beautifully awesome smell of paper call money . . yea they always said that studies come first that others but you see its 2010 . . its not bout book to work on its bout life to learn on . . when you good on something just sharp it so the paper will run to your pocket . . but yea study gonna make your pocket fat BUT if you have the way and you know how to get to the top . . the world changed so we should change the way we think too . . plus,engineering is not something that i wanna go through so yea,why not right ? :) GB

here

it goes again,well i had sometime so yea,here i am . . just haha i can use an idea how and what i can be in the future . . anyone know that ? hope so cause im lost right now . . lost in the middle of nowhere and got no idea which way i should choose cause im afraid what is it at the end of the road i choose . . well i try to be brave to seat where i can survive but till when i wanna stand here without doing nothing to get out from there . . well hoping is something wishing not gonna bring me anywhere . . but yea,hoping too long just bring shit back for me . . well im proud that i had a mind that like this what i had cause there apart where i even can not think alot about the think that important to the world well i guess that what make me so calm . . just sometimes . . not all the time . . anyway , well i dont wanna say it cause everyone know life is bullshit . . so praying that everything gonna be okay . . yup,everything gonna be okay . . GB

gb/godbless

freak

okay , jadi life is not that easy but tak de lah susah mana cause when you believe in God then jalan nya lurus so i dont really mind bout the life . . kindda cool the way it is,but here some tricky trick that i dont know agak mencabar . . 1) bila selalu sangat tido siang susah sangat nak tido malam,tah cam entah, hari tu dah okay tido kol 10,11 then ni start balik tak tido malam. . ape cer ? keras je kot malam kalau best tak pe doh . . damn ! 2) what gonna happen with my study ?(just dont wanna talk so long but it really fucked up) 3rd i dont know ma,sometimes i get you right but sometimes,haprak . . i will improve on that . . i love you ma 4)babe,there is a word between YES and NO aite ? there no such new word in between so stop being a "natural" position cause i dont want you to . . left or right,you choose . . oh yaw hommies,i dont know what the fuck is going on with you but please ay just wake up and that living again man ! aint got no time for bullshiting mayne ! our time is past ay,stop crackin around and do something that can make you eat in the future . . what's up with her anyway ? are you super crack when you want her to stick with you mayne ? she is hilarious and i dont know super fucked up and do want to mention that really close to you man ? sis yeah but a girl man open your eyes wide dude ! she were fucking around before and still now i wanna talk bout it but just you were being so ass stick up the whole time with her . . ay buddies i know you man ! but btw have a bless wish you luck

road

aint bout gangster or bullshiting around anymore man..its about real life right now..aint got no time to make whole thing a mess just live by what we had..dont demand to much cause in real life we aint got all for ourself..life is really that hardcore..just dont waste your time on something that you not confidence about to rely your faith..put it something strong something that you can think about and something that will bring you sometin..face it man ! this is a real life aint got no second chance for us..you waste it you lose it there is no bullshiting and play again that is how we deal in real life..so incase you not strong enough just play it safe man cause me i got no other road like you..so want it or not the hard way is the only way for me..i learn and i born for it man..i had prepare my self for it cause that life looks so simple making me look like i bullshit all thing but i got bigger things then that to take care off..so go fuck you head off if you wanna be in that way for the whole time..trust me you aint go no where with you attitude like that man..sorry but i really disappoited on you man! just hope you wake up soon..from a brother to a brother

i am

me trying to be me as me so i can be happy like you..yes i am jealous of what you had and i dont have'it..the life i had is not as easy as what i can told about by word,im in the situation trying to make everyone else happy its hard..try it if you can..try to be me,huh but i never sad bout the life i had..i know things can be solve..yea there alot out there with a thousand more problems then me :) im proud to be me,i dont wanna be made.. :)

love?

still try to calm myself and try not to think bout it..it a shit if i add it into mylife right now,with all the situation and condition im not ready for love,dude! wake up its 2010 bullshit if you wanna say love cost only two heart love cost infinite money so the next time ill talk about it im ready to be a father..hope so(if you know what im trying to let you know ) :)

hunger

always come not at the right time,oh hunger..can you come bout 1 hour from now? gosh you make me sick..for real,just do something else so you will not bothering me..i will eat but not now..just dont have any mood yet so get lost and come back bout an hour from now..thanks really appreciate that man!

yet

i love the way morning goes,when you had a walk at your street going to the park..its some kind of feeling that you will never get other time in the day..the smell of the laundry each houses,feeling like thousand bird singing at the same time,the sun rising bit by bit all the faces going to work with lots of mind set you can see..there are some people who really calm,there are someone who rushing out..its all because of the level they sit..its an enjoyable moment to feel..as the day growing older,just set your mind that it looks beautifully that way..it keeps you calm in some moment we should lie ourself that way cause if not and you see it negatively,it just so scary and not bring any good reason for it..should be start your day with smile and good quality of rest :)

desire

my desire to get trough all of the shit that happen looking so dim and i dont know how and what other way to pull my self from this ringer..i taught i mapped it out i taught i knew all the way up but yet again and again it just keep on happen and happen..the life i had past is something epic in my entire life but well how do it spell sounds past so im always take my hand of the past and start grab to the present life i had..smile are the only friends true friends the left with me trough all the badshit happened..im not gonna say life sucks cause from what the track had made for me that is how i will run it..guess that is the only thing that left now and the only thing i hold to keep me still using the body and soul given..LIFE IS GOOD

a

by the last thing that i should do is make the addiction drive first and leaving me behind..was a good life still young and had alot of thing in my mind to make it happen but im not gonna go with addiction in me..it not something that can be proud of it not something that we should not thinking of cause human had an expiring date..so to be honest im living with it for a long time and god no idea on how to make it stop..well i guess now im still a human with a heart and brain to think so i will think to have a bright healthy future rather then living in life that will be help by other..im not kindda person that need others always by my side i just need some space for me an this is a point where i should make up myself a great heart and be someone that somebody can proud of..this addiction is not gonna make me go any further..god bless me and the life i had,peace!

quote for today : When all is said and done, more is said than done

b

the price of evil

from my search,this what i found the best sound of the name and element of demon of some sort of things,i've been curious and want to know more about demon and this one creature called vampire.still got no answer why..

Richard Dukante's Hierarchy (1963)
Unsere - (f) Fertility and Sorcery
Delepitore - (f) Demoness of Sorcery Enlightement
Satanchia - Grand Genreal (War)
Agaliarept - Assistant Grand General (War)
Lucifage - High Command (Control)
Flereous - Fire Elemental
Lucifer - Air Elemental
Leviathan - Water Elemental
Belial - Earth Elemental
Beelzebuth - Lord of insects
Belphegore - Master of Armorment and Weaponry
Mesphito - Keeper of the book of death
Amducious - The destroyer
Asmodeus - Demon of Lust
Sonnielion - (f) Demoness of hate
Abbadon - Advisor
Ammon - demon of domination
Mammon - Demon of Avarice
Rosier - Demon of love
Ashtaroth - (f) Preistess of friendship
Eurynomous - Demon of Death
Verrine - Demon of Health
Verrier - (f) Demoness of plants and herbalism
Ronwe - Demon of Knowledge
Babeal - Keeper of Graves

c

was it possible for me to have it? gosh i really want em' it was so cute and wow it was kindda thing im sure that she will not give me after tattoo-ing cause well i think it something that cant! but it so beautiful and cute i promise i will take care of it like no other else..can you imagine its kindda cool to have it and keep it in your house..and the cute little bark kindda awesome! and yea this pet can grow bigger like really big!! man i wish i can have it... DALMANTTION

d

same shit thing happen again and again but yea as usual other then you rather deal with it or you can just let it walk infront of you with silence and just let it go away by time..its not a hard work just a matter of time you should remain your soul calm of the seduction that walks..the life that never gonna be end even a day with all the test that consider i always see it coming again and again and just dont have any other reason but face it..i never had the life i want what thank god for the life i had its really consider as wonderful cause everything goes to the point even it going not really straight..wel i guess not just me that had a hard life it just i had a hard time sooner or later maybe it gonna be end..do this consider as a heart feeling? i just dont know when and how i gonna get but yea hoping is another reason to live..hey you,love you ahahhahaha

QUOTE FOR TODAY : A coward is much more exposed to quarrels than a man of spirit

e

i make it strong i make it clear i make it sense on every step i take..why and why should i being delaying it and denying things that i clearly see in front,running around in the same room doesnt make thing productive doesnt make any hand to own life and world..it seem like a new faith need a new jersey,not something materialistic but something that can push the limit can change the fact and the faith to something that real and believe it is real..so what else other then make thing worst just make things easy about it..when life was not the real chase after all..

a new quotes that can recently use : Faith has to do with things that are not seen and hope with things that are not at hand

today quote : Life is a comedy for those who think,and a tragedy for those who feel