i am

me trying to be me as me so i can be happy like you..yes i am jealous of what you had and i dont have'it..the life i had is not as easy as what i can told about by word,im in the situation trying to make everyone else happy its hard..try it if you can..try to be me,huh but i never sad bout the life i had..i know things can be solve..yea there alot out there with a thousand more problems then me :) im proud to be me,i dont wanna be made.. :)

love?

still try to calm myself and try not to think bout it..it a shit if i add it into mylife right now,with all the situation and condition im not ready for love,dude! wake up its 2010 bullshit if you wanna say love cost only two heart love cost infinite money so the next time ill talk about it im ready to be a father..hope so(if you know what im trying to let you know ) :)

hunger

always come not at the right time,oh hunger..can you come bout 1 hour from now? gosh you make me sick..for real,just do something else so you will not bothering me..i will eat but not now..just dont have any mood yet so get lost and come back bout an hour from now..thanks really appreciate that man!

yet

i love the way morning goes,when you had a walk at your street going to the park..its some kind of feeling that you will never get other time in the day..the smell of the laundry each houses,feeling like thousand bird singing at the same time,the sun rising bit by bit all the faces going to work with lots of mind set you can see..there are some people who really calm,there are someone who rushing out..its all because of the level they sit..its an enjoyable moment to feel..as the day growing older,just set your mind that it looks beautifully that way..it keeps you calm in some moment we should lie ourself that way cause if not and you see it negatively,it just so scary and not bring any good reason for it..should be start your day with smile and good quality of rest :)

desire

my desire to get trough all of the shit that happen looking so dim and i dont know how and what other way to pull my self from this ringer..i taught i mapped it out i taught i knew all the way up but yet again and again it just keep on happen and happen..the life i had past is something epic in my entire life but well how do it spell sounds past so im always take my hand of the past and start grab to the present life i had..smile are the only friends true friends the left with me trough all the badshit happened..im not gonna say life sucks cause from what the track had made for me that is how i will run it..guess that is the only thing that left now and the only thing i hold to keep me still using the body and soul given..LIFE IS GOOD

a

by the last thing that i should do is make the addiction drive first and leaving me behind..was a good life still young and had alot of thing in my mind to make it happen but im not gonna go with addiction in me..it not something that can be proud of it not something that we should not thinking of cause human had an expiring date..so to be honest im living with it for a long time and god no idea on how to make it stop..well i guess now im still a human with a heart and brain to think so i will think to have a bright healthy future rather then living in life that will be help by other..im not kindda person that need others always by my side i just need some space for me an this is a point where i should make up myself a great heart and be someone that somebody can proud of..this addiction is not gonna make me go any further..god bless me and the life i had,peace!

quote for today : When all is said and done, more is said than done

b

the price of evil

from my search,this what i found the best sound of the name and element of demon of some sort of things,i've been curious and want to know more about demon and this one creature called vampire.still got no answer why..

Richard Dukante's Hierarchy (1963)
Unsere - (f) Fertility and Sorcery
Delepitore - (f) Demoness of Sorcery Enlightement
Satanchia - Grand Genreal (War)
Agaliarept - Assistant Grand General (War)
Lucifage - High Command (Control)
Flereous - Fire Elemental
Lucifer - Air Elemental
Leviathan - Water Elemental
Belial - Earth Elemental
Beelzebuth - Lord of insects
Belphegore - Master of Armorment and Weaponry
Mesphito - Keeper of the book of death
Amducious - The destroyer
Asmodeus - Demon of Lust
Sonnielion - (f) Demoness of hate
Abbadon - Advisor
Ammon - demon of domination
Mammon - Demon of Avarice
Rosier - Demon of love
Ashtaroth - (f) Preistess of friendship
Eurynomous - Demon of Death
Verrine - Demon of Health
Verrier - (f) Demoness of plants and herbalism
Ronwe - Demon of Knowledge
Babeal - Keeper of Graves

c

was it possible for me to have it? gosh i really want em' it was so cute and wow it was kindda thing im sure that she will not give me after tattoo-ing cause well i think it something that cant! but it so beautiful and cute i promise i will take care of it like no other else..can you imagine its kindda cool to have it and keep it in your house..and the cute little bark kindda awesome! and yea this pet can grow bigger like really big!! man i wish i can have it... DALMANTTION

d

same shit thing happen again and again but yea as usual other then you rather deal with it or you can just let it walk infront of you with silence and just let it go away by time..its not a hard work just a matter of time you should remain your soul calm of the seduction that walks..the life that never gonna be end even a day with all the test that consider i always see it coming again and again and just dont have any other reason but face it..i never had the life i want what thank god for the life i had its really consider as wonderful cause everything goes to the point even it going not really straight..wel i guess not just me that had a hard life it just i had a hard time sooner or later maybe it gonna be end..do this consider as a heart feeling? i just dont know when and how i gonna get but yea hoping is another reason to live..hey you,love you ahahhahaha

QUOTE FOR TODAY : A coward is much more exposed to quarrels than a man of spirit

e

i make it strong i make it clear i make it sense on every step i take..why and why should i being delaying it and denying things that i clearly see in front,running around in the same room doesnt make thing productive doesnt make any hand to own life and world..it seem like a new faith need a new jersey,not something materialistic but something that can push the limit can change the fact and the faith to something that real and believe it is real..so what else other then make thing worst just make things easy about it..when life was not the real chase after all..

a new quotes that can recently use : Faith has to do with things that are not seen and hope with things that are not at hand

today quote : Life is a comedy for those who think,and a tragedy for those who feel

f

it is something to be saying that i had a wonderful life so far this year.it was a blessed year for me,Alhamdullilah,Thank God for giving..well i should be saying that i have a good quality life and not regret bout it..yea for me im mot having a plain life rich having all this and that in a blink of eye,but im not having a hard life where lunch is a new think like people at palestine are.my family had a hard time and we are not rich to eat lamb stew everyday,we are malaysian and my mom can still feed me rice everyday(just me will not thankful,before.i will now) they(my parent) till now fighting to survive for next month,if you know what im saying..they hardly try to make me as same level as other kids like what they seen..im so embarrassed and humiliated of my self seeing them fighting for me,working un-same time like other parent at their age..it all for me yet im still cold me..well i guess cause im having a hard time(i think) so a simple problem will not effect my mental shockly it teach me how to be strong they teach me how to fight back from losing..living in life that full of obstacle making me who i am right now..the life i had now is from the lent of God and blessing by God guide by my mother(nor saadah binti haji shukri) a teach from my dad(ramly bin nordin) and everyone who had and still be around me since the first cry i'ed made in these temporarily life..thank God for the life that blessed to me since july 11th 1991-july 11th 2010(present) and continuing..the journey i had before making a good changing point in my life to open my eyes and realize the goods and bads in the life that i should go for.the dream i had making my aim visible in my mind and the aim is the end of my rope that i climb now..i hope it will not fall or else i'll be fall..i am hafiz syamir,and this is me typing while other do their stuff and enjoying bless sunday birthday..good day !

g

paul the oct..just check out bout this guy and check out what i find out..

1. He's originally from Weymouth

2. He's a wanted man

3. He's big news

4. He's the biggest celebrity in Oberhausen

5. He's got a good track record

6. He could have made you a packet

7. He's an intelligent creature

8. He's a Twitter and Facebook sensation

9. He doesn't cheat

10. He's not scared of death threats

yea,you see he is a money making machine so some side of people like him some of it not..so if he just make the team predicted lose,here is some news bout it

Since correctly predicting Spain's victory over Joachim Löw's team Paul has been on the recieving end of a backlash from Germany fans.

However the octoped has got in support in the unlikely form of Spanish Prime Minister Jose Luiz Rodriguez Zapatero who has joked he will provide Paul with a team of boduguards.

Zapatero said: "I am concerned for the octopus. I am thinking of sending him a protective team."

The octopus had already made its prediction for the third and fourth place play-off opting for the mussel in the Germany box. It took Paul just a couple of minutes to decide its adopted nation will beat uruguay to take third place in the tournament.

h

im guessing that life s that how it should be right now..life is truly fair but the point is you need to know how to use it..well life never been like what they show on tv..life is about the way you brought it trough the life you use to be..it already been wrote that you will go that way and this way just matter fact of time..but well as life go on you should move on..how far you can go is depend on how brave you wanna push the limit to reach it..matter fact it will flow like how you want it too..just make sure you guide yourself to not going out from the race..its a life race that once you lose your place its hard for you to catch the small number..you need a guidance,a guide that not from your own blood and not from the hommies..a guide that can lead you to a place call safe in your heart..a guide that can hold your heart at the edge of the verge..the one that will always be by your side the one that you can count on when you need em the most..the one that will take all the love that you pour to..the only one that you will share you life with..your wealth your hard and everything together trough ages..

i

the more i think and think,i guess malaysian driver is kindda scary was it? you see the road are made by the government for one reason for all of us use it..got it? okay so why dont we have a kind of feeling to share the road? especially oldies..yo granny and paps,you see..i dont care what care you driving was it half of million car or even a million car..i bet you cant pay victims fams if you ram with others..see whats wrong with you guys driving with lots of pride when driving an expensive car? do i even care bout it? bullshit! dude! why your expensive car dosnt have any signal like my cheap car? so makes mine car more expensive then yours..was your car should be enter a token or coin so your signal will be light out? mine not..just click it..do your car have 20-40 km/h meter? so you will be fast all the time even in the village road? mine have so another point my car is expensive then yours..should my car be askew when trough a bumper? no but yours yea look like stupid..you see at u.s they dont even have a bumper..you know why? cause they know how to drive slow at village road..so they can be super fast at the highway even the cops can catch the plat number..but you stupid morron act like a cool fast and furious driver at the road village what the fuck? just gonna be proud at your ugly girls? come on! make others proud is you die..so they have something to talk bout..he died at 240 km/h with nitrous racing with that stupid fuzzy from blablabla yeah im sure will respect him..but he been caught cause racing or he been caught cause ram with kids at village road..wtf? you see..our own car cant be that fast..so work hard,cash in some money and do get car that really can go..not car that should go trash..peace malaysian driver!

j

it will always be something..it batter cause you are the only reason we still keep on our faith to you dad..dear god,keep my dad strong keep him away from badness alife and afterlife..dear god,you are the greatest and the only creator..ya Allah ya tuhan ku..kau berkati ah keluarga kami..amin

k

who know life today visualing your tomorrow? well things is always make up with science so dont expect tomorrow gonna be different then today if you not making progression in the middle of the word..to tell you a lies yes you gonna make it trough tomorrow but the truth is that you never gonna passed tomorrow is you attitude being like that..yeah its a free day but look you being ass all day what you thing your attitude looking okay but inside rebel is cool? dude wake up its 2000 years has gone since that age..change up dude wake up being loser like this never gonna change anything in your life,see have you noticed any improvement or anything to say or be proud off? nothing thats why..people never live in 1 point only start moving that is why they call it a line..try to stand on your feet back..gain some energy to move and start to walk learn how to run..you know how to change course but you never know how to change from bad to good all that you know is changing good to great..you are not that good to be great..abandon the island start your engine and drive your boat away..staying in this island that make you feel comfort with never seeing mister risk will not brought you anywhere further..keep on stronger cause you need a super strong heart to fight from your way now..its not an easy work but it never be impossible to make it..make your own decision man! SELF ADVICE

l

im being lunatic lately,and yea i realized it now..what the fuck i just dont know what is going om with me,shit things always happen and yea everytime it come i will try to suits myself in the situation cause yea i've lost alot lately but i still standing maybe it just another exam for me from god well i guess i just have to survive it too..being me is like being i dont know kindda hard but yea,i choose to learn hard then easy..lots of mine had crashing down and its me who will pick up the pieces that broken..well yea humiliation is my friends too right now..i guess i will get used of it..losing a level of things won't break my heart..its cool im fine with something like that..the matter of things is how can i be more creative to pass all the test i will face..running away just make it be team up so while it still early let me fight it one by one..fighter for my life too exhausted but still had to stand cause its my duties its my family i hold its my future i grab so if its not me then who wanna stand for it? well smile always help me fake it out front of you.. so keep smiling

m

about hours ago,

she : sure time ada world cup tido lambat dgn keluar tngok bola kat mcd nya ni tak de match pon nk tido lambat?

he : kejap,

she : dah dah,g tido

he : okay,

she : cuba lah skali skala tu terus buat apa mama suruh,

he : ye ye okay,nk tidur lah ni

she : -.- sekarang,

he : okay ma,good night

now,just happen 5 min ago..still not sleep yet :) dont wanna lose the beautiful sunday i had..oh,its monday already..and already feel the pressure..damn,

n

it always about it

o

having a blessfull sunday and enjoying it..its quite beautiful with everything cause i know my blood flow well in my head..such a wonderful day to smile..everything so perfect today..when im wake up,the only thing i see first is my spain jersey that i hang infront of my closet..so proud of it..hahahha then having a lovely nescafe that i make myself..my favorite nescafe 3 in 1..then having a smoke and feel the wind..listen to audioslave..dude! i really enjoy my day today..and i just done cleaning up my place after done this thing i'll clean up my desk..my place is about 10 feet 10 so if its messy you will know how mess my brain will be..its small but now it looks tide and peace..what a beautiful day :) so i'll clean up my desk now.SUNDAY IS ENJOYABLE BLESS DAY

p

yes lah,terbaik..at the end im the one who spent fucking quality time at home..thanks everybody..ma..you are mad but you cant sound it..why? im here..i will never walk away from your side you know that..say it say it ma..again and again you just can talk it to me,why need me to say it? im afraid ill say it not with my mouth..

q

should i be care of what you try to do? nahhh,i shouldnt..you know how to walk so find a road to walk..just walk dont turn back i already bet that you will not turning back so dont make me lose? thanks..well guess i had a great simple moment for awhile now im back to normal back be stronger well now what's important is myself..

r

a decision that i already take! and it is final.no body can stop me now and i will make it happen no matter what..it is after all those world cup matter end and i will changing something in my life..its about time for me,if not i straight going to the bin..if its not now then when? i batter be prepare on what will be happen..for god sake it is about my future and i dont wanna end up my life as a loser so changing course is the way it should be..and it will be

1) time,will be sleep early will be use time beautifully and not wasting it on something stupid

2)money,should be start hardcore saving from now on..

3) study,what should i eat 10 years from now?

4) desire on surfboarding..i will make it happen some how

5) responsibility,somebody should take the vice president place in the family

i will definitely make something happen if its not all maybe there is something that change..its about time its about time already hafiz syamir

s

he is the awesome vocalist i ever know since i was dont know maybe in standard 4 or something..almost all his part in hybrid theory i remembered..the coolest thing is the fire blazing tattoo at both of his hand..that is mad! awesome!! his fashion you cant predict cause he is always changing course person and well he dress DOPE! linkin park is a band that i will be listening till an hour before i die :) chester bennington bro-the

t

I've got another confession to make

I'm your fool

Everyone's got their chains to break

Holdin' you

Were you born to resist, or be abused?

Is someone getting the best

The best, the best, the best of you?

Is someone getting the best

The best, the best, the best of you?

Or are you gone and onto someone new?

I needed somewhere to hang my head

Without your noose

You gave me something that I didn't have

But had no use

I was too weak to give in

Too strong to lose

My heart is under arrest again

But I'll break loose

My head is giving me life or death

But I can't choose

I swear I'll never give in

I refuse

Has someone taken your faith?

It's real, the pain you feel

You trust, you must confess

Is someone getting the best

The best, the best, the best of you?

Is someone getting the best

The best, the best, the best of you?

I've got another confession my friend

I'm no fool

I'm getting tired of starting again

Somewhere new

Were you born to resist, or be abused?

I swear I'll never give in, I refuse

Is someone getting the best

The best, the best, the best of you?

Is someone getting the best

The best, the best, the best of you?

Has someone taken your faith?

It's real, the pain you feel

You trust, you must confess

Is someone getting the best

The best, the best, the best of you?

u

there no turning back..go for what you had done before..fight for you not for others,in this life its about you not them fight for your faith fight for what you believe what you confirm to understand

1)life is a bout making decision

2)life is about changing course

3)life is about stick on what you believe

there is no such things that not making sense in this world,everything had been written we are the actors to make the movie done..from the first sound you spoke,you lost everything that you had and its your way to search it back..what you seek is alife so its you that change it for goodness or bad.

back up plan is always usefull cause in this life we not gonna be on top all the way till the end so should have a plan when you are at the bottom list pit..all the hard work you sacrifice is worthed to be think and smile when you get the payment..rather it pay on your account or pay in cash..

ask for more work for more but thankfull of what you had..greed is a monster you should be stay away from..you lose everything if you being friend with it..greed is something i learn that nobody should use it in daily life,yea greed pay in cheque..

there always second chance for us when there still can spell redemption,its about changing its about another you it is something that you should hold on when life is rich and famous..you should have time to think when you at the top of the world cause that is when your life spinning around..it is nature of life..prepare is a things that you should have in your pocket..things will not always be the same..

hold on what you are born for..stand for what you know is your believe,stand for your guidance stand for what they say..stand for your family especially the person who love you the most the one who give birth to you and till you forget who are you..turn back! stand for yourself.. dont expect others to be the same as you give..that is why the word spell heart..stand for others who stand for you cause you will not be alone forever in this world the one who cheer you the one who tears you the one who will there when you need them..

*thank God

*thank you

v

i think i had a new addiction to be collect and make it a hobbies..its so dope and i think maybe not lots of people collect it so much..but yea i know its old idea..hahah the color make it looks so envy to see others have it..damn but yea,it cost 300 riggit each for brand new and maybe i go for second hand to collect :) wish me luck

w

you cant denied that they really look beautiful isit? yes they are you see is you are really fashion follower..for me it looks so cute..and it show how rebel and strong are your heart..its something that not all girls will think bout it..its something cool..dude! i really admire a girl that had ever think to do it..its awesome,but yea maybe the culture here but even short hairstyle looks so beautiful..okay here,its simple,looks orderly with some flavor of rebel and anger inside..that is something!

x

pfftt..again and again and again seeing you make my heart beat flowless..is it a way for any part of me to make you understand that there a spark going on about you..but yea,just let the kite fly if im lucky enough i can pull back if not thunder cut it and wind fly it away :)

y

you have to think bout this month plenties of time cause its not and ordinary month..its a month where special people comes and goes..its about changing course of life its a new start to 2nd term of the year its about everything good in a year..welcome to a new world boy

z

feeling like having a split personality is sick..feel like you cant remember bout you before and being a new you in a while..sound fucking scary when i realize.did i be like that always? dude! it start to freaking me out..hope the other me is not that idiot till killing people..i know bout of me love the nature and lives..was split personality is hospital type sick or mental type sick..cause i think maybe there some kind of thing going wrong with the brain..since i dont believe to stupid magic or something between it the only logical fact that play in mind is hospital type sick..those nonsense is bullshit when i see most of melayu culture believe..its bullshit! remember what have been written,you standing below mother,alquran,muhammad s.a.w and god..so other then that was quite you should think about more then double twice..think lah macha

torn

hahahha bullshit all the sad story..im going strong..my life being good and my heart had rebuild..no need a hand no need a help i make it change i getting my self up from the fall i whip my own tears..the fuck i dont care anything bout you its all about what the best for me..my believe is the most important things in my life..then my family and all my buddies..my life is already cool with them so i dont give a fuck for another seat for ruiner like you..this chapter is about me and my life is priceless so i'll appreciate things that been there for me since starts..changing it for now just making things worst i believe in it but not now..